and so yet, 
i will or not be there. I will or not my world to leave a better place, I will or not be part of the human race for which finds systems disastrous. and i am not even mentioning bankers and fraud i am not mentioning bush and Halliburton, the mob and the cia, no i am not talking about the chemicals in food or the warming of the earth in order to get at the oil reserves underneath, or the planned littering of our media by allowing the persons of corporate nature(as separate from human nature, differences like a communistic approach to the senses,, like the normal peoples sence of doom.) let 85 percent of “major media” to be owned by five Corporations,, or the planned destruction in the seas, from the blacked gulf to the nuclear east , i am not talking of the radioactive Armageddon that already happened and we are just waiting for the side effects with every bite of fish, no I am . not.. talking of that.
it is so to the confusion of my conversation , wonders first on its own values,, its own sences and philosophy,, Its own will i am to will or not. it is that of seeing the paths which accept the hideous and super being of our inner creations. and that Such as Blame and scorn be gone, the vibrations and equality of water beings as energy soul, are recognized. And suffered, for the perfection is a dream of all being so.
I am not as achieved as of all that and so when i hear the voices of madness which becomes authority, i look inside and see me.
i see the child who looked with guilt at his own noise and then as an adult walked into brick walls to show you i can while drunk, i am the last one you hit at a party, and the first who wants to live the furthermost of the money spent. i am the one with no name you never remember because you meet me drinking. but I jump at the unheard approaches, and have a anger. but only when i will or not.
i have lost every job because i have walked off. Scaring myself with adult anger, Oh yes you can read Tolstoy one day and scream in darkin nights with one ripped business shirt and a smell of tequila forgotten And almost everything that just went on. but looking at the ex-stream only in a rear view.
Knowing each moment as a passionate chance.
A love zealously celebrated. a moment’s will
far of civil such the poet brand,
and never the same after.
A stand is well placed
so I will or will not.
all with humble laughter.
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or i fall off your deep end impassioned by a moment not started here and where here it will not die.. the Occupy, It is a set of eyes with hope learning frustration. As a new thing , fresh eyes in sparkles of youth, standing in side the main tent. store bought tshirts and conversations of the favorite game Ninnteen , that says “i am ready” “I am just a solider” right after he tells me about the white Lexius “over there pointing his hand, thats the one, in one game, that he almost got to the end with.19 and already thinking he is a body. it mades me want to describe everyone, for the old man with a black cowboy hat , as tall as rain, and cunning in a chess feild, the electriciam that hs a house but was called here by a dart on a map. or T– who’s five nothing and raised his three children in the woods for a while. who goes canning with a calm acceptance.
Stories, and i want to think of them, for they were my occupy. people are heart.. and the wallstreeters, became the heartland, as this mixture was congregated, like a cloud of people, condensed humidity from a frustration of back door deals posing as caring government
A Government without responsibility or a positive world definition. Some one wants it to be “government as tax collector only , and that we will privatize”.
but yet..
Do we pay just for a Protection status? when the authority is onlly weapons and not reason. for reason would just have a conversation on the matter. would look at all the corporate movements and the effects there of and find some leaning that says you are right and we should be the first Occupy city,,Bellingham Especially , for the Georgia Pacific Lot which litters our common water front, two miles long and half a mile wide, which is one of the largest “chemical contamination” which sickens our water supply with mercury, and sickens us with a side effect of mercury poison; depression.
the Coal Trains are just a new part of bellingham’s contamination and these people chained themselves to each other in a big puppy pile on top of the tracks stopping trains for five hours. on the OCCUPY THE POrts day.
but i am tired of talking and must sleep, i will or will not.go tomorrow.
I want to talk better but can not. Frustration at the history of the last fifty years buzz my head. but i have only lived as an adult through the most recent,, that time of the lies with wmd, the stealing of governmental contracts and the persuits of death and American domination surrounding the last eleven years , the issues of guarding foreign gas pipelines and dieing for corporate oil profits from an Oil based President. And even before that when they were getting ready, and Environ-ing us, OK ing us, S and L ing us and when we started to talk about the WTO to much;
Such that within the next year Bush decides to read; to kindergarden kids(who were told not to make fun of the President) .
ii have talked to much again, one last thingy,, if government is meant to be just a tax collector for the reason of policing and authorizing law of one over the other without regard to true justice as a common man would understand life and liberty and a global awareness education,starting with mediation and ending with raw food farming and New zoning laws of solar energy on all new buildings large and small then , Then i would say get out ,, and we would protect ourselves, we would make friends , not hid agendas, but we would have to explain ourselves to other, to give the whole picture and not just the slow “conspiratorial planning”, (which i would guess at as being World Domination For world government Through the recognition of Aliens and which leads to a common sense of Metaphysical Unity.
, a yea , “what he said” 
